twisted sanity for the spotless mind: June 2005

Confessions of a Shopaholic Single Mom

its becoming an addiction. i promise...its getting worse. i cant help it. rustan's department store is my new bestfriend. i literally went all rustan's department store in ortigas, q.c., makati...actually all baby stores eh. g2 is now my side of glorietta. ayayay! i need to leave my atm card at home just to keep me from shopping...excessively. i just came from podium ayayay again! i was with a friend and carlo everyone inside the store was staring at us. siguro curious sino ang daddy...hahah! sabi ni carlo sya daw. no reaction. well, i have to seek help na ata. or just stay at home to be sure.

here are some pics from fete. sorry for the delay...

in a limbo

I don’t know why im like this. Im not sure if its still part of that post natal depression-s...im so fucked up! Lately, im in a roller coaster of emotions. NOT GOOD. It’s so weird. I can’t trust myself at the moment when it comes to decision making. Basta. I don’t wanna caught ME back to my old self. I don’t wanna be unfair to anyone. I hope he understands that. I hope (I) understands (ME). Loony.

Random thoughts…

When you’re young your whole life is about the pursuit of fun then you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don’t leap at all because there isn’t someone there to catch you. And in life there are no safety nets. When did it stop being fun and start to be scary?

When will be the waiting for The One be DONE?

And the search continues…

im so fucked up!!!

my 1st love...

sabi nga ni tado in a show sa ABS. "happy father's day to all the tatays at sa mga tatay na nagtatago...magpakatatay kayo." JACKPOT! tamang-tama. how i wish he was watchin the same show. Have you ever been accused of being a daddy's girl?(title from a newspaper column)I AM. always was and always will be. My dad is my superman. My ideal man. As flawed as he is in many ways, I cant stop looking for a version of him. maybe that's why i date(d) a number of guys BEFORE. because i was looking for someone who'd be like my dad. mahirap pala yun. AND ill continue searching for my man whom ill grow old with but one thing is for sure...there is only one Antonio, and its likely ill never love another man as much as I love him. I love you papa. ill always be your little gurl...kahit may little gurl na ako.

to all the dads out there...HAPPY DAD'S DAY! to JP, what the heck...Happy dad's day too.

"My father didn't tell me how to live; he lived, and let me watch him do it"-Clarence Budington Kelland

Fete dela Musique 2005

met rain at starbuck's podium. may muntik pang mawala. sorry, bitchie! then lakad lakad kami ni rain inside podium while waiting for the rest of the group. then we saw the most disturbing scene for the night...(i thought) in the middle of podium...some couple kissing each other and not just kiss per se ha. make out talaga. eehhhe!went back to starbuck's...nikki arrived then bing then my favorite couple, mari and bob. we had dinner at kitaro. not happy with my meal...shit! went to el pueblo. saw onats...man, he did shed some pounds and i mean SHED! he said he's takin boxing...hmm...??? Cynthia was the best...promise. we decided to go to the rock stage to meet my all tym favorite band hellbender.(sana ilibre ako ni toffer.) im impressed...ang ganda ng sched nila this year and i mean PANG PRO.!!!! Congrats!!! geez, whats wrong with this peeps they were all over. sweating like pigs...ewww! when we decided to go back to watch jr. kidlat at the world stage which i tell you was just near lang but seems so far sa dami ng tao. we decided to take the other route sa labas ng el pueblo. i tell you we should have not taken that route. scary sobra. di pa natapos dun un. pag pasok uli namin ng el pueblo on the other side nagkatulakan ng. nabuhos beer ko sa akin and bing almost lost her phone and rain was molested. laughttrip na hindi but it was really scary. we decided to rest on this parking lot basement. away from the crowd. then went back to rock stage. saw some disturbing scenes uli(remember that one in podium) the girl was biting and licking the guy's ears. shootz...ganun pala ung feeling ng nakakakita dont know how that feels when ikaw ang gumagawa. (hahaha!i love you bing!) we're the bar gurls coz we're gurls standing at a bar. corny. saw some GH boys but its so humuliating that i have to pull a conversation without mentioning his name and i cant even introduce my friends since i dont remember their names. pathetic. basta GH Boys sila. yun un. i saw tet with his beau and kuya A and some peeps i dont remember their names from ABS. excuse me bing, i dont have any date...hindi sya boylet. please. u know what i mean. Not interested at the moment pa ang status ko. its not my fault. masisi ko ba kung gorguz pa den kahit momi na? un lang. thou, id like to thank him pala. period. well, AGAIN Fete dela Musique was a success. It was a night of music, people, over flowing beer, Fun and SWEAT! it was all good. looking forward to next year's celebration. pictures on the way na...

XX's

yes, i almost forgot about the MOST shocking SCENE for the night was not the couples making out. it was that naked guy up the rock stage. honestly speaking...hindi ung fact na naked sya ang disturbing the fact that his thing is so small that's makes it really shocking. pototoy. an liit!hahahha! "it's so microsopic." ---word for the day...from bitchie rain. i love you mama bing.fine jr. kilat na. hhahahahhah!