boyz to men...

shootz...my doctor found an infection. not telling the details but its nothing...i hope.i just need to take some medications for one whole week and its all gone. ninong jay called asking for some tips coz he's having an interview sa kapuso. AND...he has a new gurlfriend...Bianca. good thing she's two years younger lang kay jay (yes!hindi na high school..thou, kabatch ni ex...)someone new to inspire him...again. good for him. im very happy for him...he knows that. basta. the guy's definitely back in the biz. wacky called awhile ago asking for carmen's number. ???? its becoz carmen is rica's friend. rica????ex-crush. salasalabat na. weird...something about wacky's dream of her. hmm? uwi na momi ko sa tuesday. uwi den si tati(baliktad na tita) and my cuzin kuya onald with his chikitings and wife. im so excited...

BETWEEN DINNER AND THE MORNING AFTER: a new book(let) from summit. i still have no idea what its all about but natamaan lang ako when i read the title.wats in between dinner and the morning after? im not spilling anything but im sure some of friends got an idea na what im writing here. BEEN THERE...DONE na WITH HIM. di ako magkakaipokrita...i miss him. hello? malamang daddy un ng baby ko...as my friends would always tell me. but it all ends there...PERIOD.

ninong JAY: goodluck sa interview at sa exmas...yakang yaka mo yan. kapuso ka na...hmm?magkapuso na rin kaya ako?hehehe! please wag kang late sa binyag ha?malapit na naman bday ko. date uli tayo. un nga lang may gurlaloo ka na...busy busihan ka na.

daddy WACKY: hello...tie those loose ends with rica...loose ends nga ba?asking lang. walang seryosohan. this is so weird...i hope to see you on isha's baptismal. wala lang. :) sabi ng momi ko dapat daw ikaw nalang ang ninong. i told her...nothing...pero ninong ang itatawag sayo ng baby ko. like all the rest of the gazebo boys. thank you....for wat?madami...basta alam mo na un. :) hahah!antanda na naten!

an open letter...

HOY TRACY ROSE CAMAGIAN...UMUWI KA NA!!! i miss u. i miss that night we rocked that club in eastwood. bring along chris para mameet na namen ng matakot sya sa pinapasok nyang relationship...joke lang. kidding aside...i love u gurl and ill always be here for you. kahit ur so many miles away... next year ill be in a new place na. u can always stay with me if u want to. by god!andtanda na naten. shit! we've known each other since elementary. kiddos pa tayo nun. naging magkabarkada tayo nung 1st year hs....and became inseparable ever since. shootz!ur getting married...rizza and jonah are blissfully in love with their boylalets. AND me...im ecstatically in love with my baby isha. hehehe!i really wish you were here and celebrate this wonderful moment with me. chie, i couldnt imagine i can miss someone so bad...and i really mean it. u tell chris i said hi and tell him to take really good care of you bcoz ako makakaaway nya pag hindi. i love you gurl...i hope to see you really soon. uwi ka sa bday ko and let's kick some cute butts here. ;P its up to you if sasama mo si chris...di ka makakalabas nga pala if kasama mo sya. ehheeh!damn gorguz!

ADD KO LANG:(chie, this was from my old.di mo pa nabasa.)its been awhile...i know she's really busy with her work and her beau. hehee!mah crazy friend and her crazy adventures there...shit!i miss her sobra! if she was here in manila...im sure...we'll be in the latest bars in town, drinkin' our shits away, dancing the night away. crazy den like me. i must admit that back high school while everybody else are loka over their same-gender crushes...we were already bitchin' about our guy issues. i considered her my sister talga since i never had one and besides pareho kami ng way of thinking. she can be crazy and wild but she has her serious side...den!that's wat i like most about her...minus her mischievous grin and her corny jokes.haha! uwi ka na. finish ur studies here. ampunin kita!love yah, gurlfriend!

Death ends a life, not a relationship. - john lemmon

since im free today and may driver, i decided to go to carlo's place drop off his invitation for isha's baptismal. after nun punta den kila kurt and joning. while arguing with fiona about what to wear tinawag ako ni kr kasi nagriring fone ko. its carlo. "hello?" then he was crying..weeping then he told me Cia died last friday. i was speechless. andami nyang kinukwento but i couldnt understand him na...all i can remember was when he said "ill meet u there. i need you there...please?" how can i say no to that. kausap ko lang si Ciara last monday, i heard that she's leaving for L.A.(ata) nung wed then i told her na dapat present sya sa baptismal ng baby ko on may 15 and she said she will...promise. i immediately got my bag di na ako nakapagblow dry ng hair headed to her lolo benjamin abalos' house sa madaluyong. then i saw carlo yap sa gate...all i can do is to embrace him and kiss him. the place was full of flowers...literally. there's a huge tarp beside her coffin and tons of pictures around. very pretty gurl. on top of her coffin i saw an open letter from carlo...i almost cried. i know its so untimely..i gave carlo the invitation. na naka-address pa To Ciara and Carlo. im sorry. when he opened it...he almost cried. REWIND...5 months ago(i think) carlo and i met at glorietta that was the first time i met Ciara. after that lunch date with friends(with mari, bob, toff and bing) carlo called me and asked me what i think about Ciara. i told him i like her. she's pretty and smart. she's really funny. kwela nga according to bing. very friendly and sweet. two thumbs up ako. after ilang weeks i found out sila na. i know carlo is really serious about her. sa lahat ng gurls na pinakilala niya sa akin si Ciara lang ang pinaka-okay and approve talga ako. kaya naman i feel really sad and hurt for him. we've been friends since hs and a lot of my guy friends disliked him. i dont. he's a real gentleman, makulit nga lang pero he's really smart. he saw me and been with me thru all my down times and i thank him for that. aminado ako...i used to like him as in crush. alam nya un. but i learned to love him more like a brother. pareho kami. id rather stay friends with him than loose him. kaya naman my only wish for him eh makahanap sya ng gurl who'll take good care of him and love him with all her heart. i thought si Ciara na. she's too young to die...but DEATH is inevitable. its one sad fact about life. no one can escape death.

CIARA: i know you're in a better place now. CARLO: i love you. ill be strong for you! Death ends a life, not a relationship. Jack Lemmon

Death is nothing else but going home to God, the bond of love will be unbroken for all eternity. Mother Teresa

this was taken at the hospital kanina. during her monthly trip to the doctor. :) poor baby isha super scary nung vaccine nya. huhuuhh!

two months na!

see my two month old baby?geez, anlaki na nya. tumatawa na sya and she's listening na everytime u talk to her. si ate marline ang nagturong magthumbsuck...bad!!! iba na naman ang sleeping schedule nig baby. sleeps the whole day. gising around 6. sleeps around 12. gising na ng 3:30am hanggang umaga na. huhuh!wawa momi...malaki na ang eye bags. but that's okay...

AL: miss na talga kita sobra. anu kaya ituturo mo sa baby ko? please wag katarantaduhan at puro tungkol sa gobyerno. laughtrip ka! nabawasan na tayo ng isa kaya please wag mo ko iiwan ha? ehhehe! I BARE. I SEEK COVER. I MAKE MISTAKES. I RECOVER. I COMPLETE ME...- ad of plains n prints

my laughing two month old baby 

thumbsuckin baby 

with momi  

realizations ko...cutie!

You know when you have a newborn when...

• you're in that in-between phase: no longer huge, yet not so slim as to fit in your regular clothes (thou, nakakapagjeans na uli ako...yahoo!)
• your dark under-eye circles can give Morticia Adams a run for the money.(i just hide it with a concealer)
• you can actually see your feet again-and realize that you need an emergency pedicure (kaya i set an appoinment agad agad...i need to pamper uli myself...haaa!!!)
• the make-up, lotions and perfumes on your vanity table table now share space with nappy creams, baby oil and other baby stuffs. (i have to trash a lot of kikay stuffs to give way to my isha's stuffs.)
• you are suddenly ver(and i mean very..) conscious of germs and stock up on rubbing alcohol (natulad na uli ako kay lei na addict sa alcohol), disinfectants and hand sanitizers.
• you flee with your baby from anyone who dares to sneeze in her presence.
• you have perfected the art of giving dagger looks to anyone whose voice/music/television volume exceeds one decibel when your little one is sleeping.
• the only time that you can be persuaded to go out is when you have to go to the pedia. (now...by appointment na ako...parang pedia. hahaha!)
• you dont consider burping gross anymore. now it's music to you ears. (she's so cute kapag nagbuburp.)
• you never suspected that a teeny-weeny could pee and poo so much.
• a full night's sleep is yesterday's dream, but it's all worth it when your baby smiles back at you

isha...momi loves you so much!!!

been very busy since malapit na baptismal ni baby isha. as much as i wanted all my friends to be there...i just cant invite everyone. its just a small lunch out with family, relatives and some friends at max's resto.(im not a max's fan pero my parents said okay na since the place is really quiet and its okay naman.) di bale ill make bawi next tim..promise! kaya please wag sasama loob niyo sa akin. to those who really wanted to be one of the ninongs and the ninangs...lahat kau ninong at ninang ang tatawag ng baby ko...cutie!

BERTO: uwi ka na!!! im a SINGLE mom and fabulous! and...lovin' it! syempre gusto ko naman den magkalovelife. ndi pa nga lang ngayon. kaya sorry nalang dun sa umaaligid dyan...boy, not interested in love pa ako. diba BING?!? kulit kasi eh. ;P

hehehe!sorry guys...i just need to post this pic lang. i cant help it...ang yummy nya. pagbigyan na ang momi. agree sakin si mari right?yum!yum@ i got this from my friend...tito ga na friend(hmm...?friend?)ni papa p. whatever...so...sana sya na lang ang daddi ng baby ko...dream gurl!dream!

my growing baby gurl...she's just one month and 3 weeks old...big baby sya talga.cutie! 

my God! sia baby? sob!sob!sob! 

Be single and be merry!

"My friends are surprised why I'm happy being single. It takes a lot of acceptance of oneself to be able to be happy bein single."

this is actually from mari's blog.(hoy, MARI...nice pic u got there. kurrant na uli tayo!) ive written a lot about singlehood...wala lang. malamang, single ako. being single is not a so bad (or sad) after all. its just a matter of accepting reality and contentment. thou, iba syempre ang feeling when your in love and u have that special someone you can share happy times with. my best advice i can give to all my single friends..go out and be merry! shop till you drop like me (and bing!), go out with your friends and most important thing you should do is to be GORGEOUS!be desirable palagi. you'll never know...hehehe!

i got na my diploma(at last!after 1 year) yesterday but before that i bought this really beautiful stilettos from people r people sa gale while waiting for lei and momi pre.(BING, binili ko na!) geez, halos maubos na pera ko sa kakahintay dun sa dalawa. its nice to be back in school. it brings back a lot of happy, sad and funny memories. i saw kris s. and arvin. timing huh? mas masarap mag-aral talaga compared to working...maraming a-agree sa akin djan. i got na den my alumni card...sabog picture ko. shootz...i really dont feel well kasi. anyway, we'll be back in school next week to get our transcripts.

RAIN: at last nabuhay ka. see you next week...wed balik kami ng school. MARI: ill treat you out. coffee?punta tayo school next week?